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The First TMS Treatment

Today I finally had my first TMS treatment for the depression part of my bipolar disorder. I had the prep appointment the other day, but because we were waiting on insurance paperwork to come through, I didn’t have my first actual treatment until today. I was so tired and frustrated from waiting for insurance that I didn’t have any energy left to be nervous about the procedure. That ended up being fine because the procedure was not scary at all.

The technician, who I will become intimately acquainted with over the next seven weeks, walked me through the procedure before we started. She’s very friendly and thinks I’m funny. Every time I say something she thinks is funny she repeats it loudly instead of laughing at it, which is amusing. She told me she liked my shoes (shown in the photo above – I put on special shoes for my first day) and I said, “Thanks, I call them my David Bowie shoes.” She said, “YOU CALL THEM YOUR DAVID BOWIE SHOES!” I’m going to make this a project during my treatment, to see how many of my comments I can get her to repeat in a loud voice.

Anyway, the treatment. They put the cap back on my head and positioned a round instrument on the left side of my head according to the grid they made the other day, and they pressed it into my head. There was a series of zaps that lasted four seconds followed by a ten second rest. It felt like mild electrical waves tapping my head. It didn’t hurt, but it induced a headache behind my right eye that lasted four seconds. It was mild, but if I had a headache like that on a normal day it would be annoying but not painful.

The series of four seconds on, ten seconds off lasted 17 minutes and then I was done. The tech asked me questions about my mental health history, current diagnoses, and rating my moods on scales from one to ten. She said she would ask me those every day.

All in all it was very simple and easy. I have a bit of a headache afterward, and feel a little lightheaded and nauseated, but neither stopped me from getting tacos for lunch on the way home. I do feel mentally exhausted, maybe partly from the depression, but also partly from the brain “workout” I did today. The tech said that usually gets better after the first week. So I’ll have my second treatment tomorrow, then I’ll be in full swing starting next week.

Now I’m going to go stare at a wall for a few hours because that feels like my level of mental competence today. I hope some of this depression lifts soon.

2 thoughts on “The First TMS Treatment

  1. Totally cool shoes! And I meant to tell you after the last couple of posts, YOU have NEVER failed a medication, but many medications have failed to meet your needs.

  2. GETTING TACOS FOR LUNCH! Definitely cool Bowie shoes and I hope the headache and nausea are transient.

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